Living a day at a time

A lot of people in this world suffer from social anxiety, and at times I do too. There are times where I just want to be left alone, and I want to isolate from everyone. This happens because I am always surrounded with people mostly a big part of my day. At times I get frustrated because social media can also take a toll making me stop being on for a good amount of time. Being an influencer, worker, singer, songwriter, soon to be wife, sister, aunt, daughter, cousin, friend, and being part of a ministry is at times a bit overwhelming. Now imagine if I was a mom….Michele has left the chat!

I stick to myself, I go out alone, and I make sure I have time to just be….ALONE. Different people try to influence me one way or another, and others are very opinionated. I can literally sit for about a good amount of time, stare out of the window, and when I least expect it….its night time. I am not going to lie to you, but my favorite part of the day is going to bed. I disconnect from the world, and by that I mean I turn off all my electronic devices. The only thing I have is my watch that I use specifically only to see what time it is in case I wake up to get a drink of water. 

What is social anxiety to me? It is when people try to make me see the way they do, make me want to do things the way they want to, and trying to get a hold of me to make a point across. I am too much of a nice person at times, but there are days where I just want to smack everyone in the face. There are days when I wake up happy, but the minute I see my phone I get angry. I get upset at times that I can never please one person because another gets mad. I am still learning day by day to put myself first than everyone else. Being a perfectionist at heart, it gets difficult to have a smile on when inside I am in tears. 

Take my wedding planning as an example, social media portrays the most elegant and expensive wedding. My family and his family want different things cause our cultures are different. Friends expect another thing when it won’t happen the way that is in their minds. People that have only spoken to my fiancé and I (just once a year) expect to be invited (not gonna happen). Our parents friends expect an invite when they were hardly present in my life. Other people that “know me” whom either they unfriended me, but added me again ask for their invitation (not gonna happen). People in general asking about the wedding…anxiety.

When so many ask about my life…….like I really want them to leave me alone. Some that STALK ME, and don’t like me (that’s laughable) but is it really necessary? So many ignorant people from church, just because I say my opinion, they automatically portray me as the bad person. Despite of all of this, there is one secret that I have which maintains me with my head up high. It is something that I cannot contain, one word that is powerful, one word that changes my life with every second that passes by, and one that is beyond anything and everything in this world. 

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For me this is the following:

God > Depression/Anxiety 

I pray at night to be at ease.

I pray at night to be complete.

I pray at night to not feel weak.

I pray at night to make whatever I have go away.

I pray at night to have strength.

I pray at night so nothing can make me bend. 

I pray at night to trust in Jesus and myself more.

I pray at night so nothing can make me feel disturbed.

I pray at night to be okay.

I pray because at the end of the day only the Lord knows my way. 

 

Does that make sense? My definition of social anxiety can be extended into so much more, but I am only sharing this half with you in case anyone is able to relate to this. Trust me everything will be fine just find time to be alone. Now that I shared my story…I want to know what is yours? Please feel free to share your experience with me, send me a message, and let me know what part hit home for you the most. Love you all and I hope you are having an amazing day or night depending where you are at this moment. xoxo.

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The life of an upcoming Influencer

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Being an influencer is all fun, games, and much more! However, do you know what it takes to be one? Or even try to get through a day? Today I want to introduce to you all two of my very best friends that just so happens to be upcoming successful Influencer’s (along with myself), but I am so proud because both of them have a blog! In both blogs, you will be able to learn more about what they do, what their life is about, and a few pointers to start being an influencer. Is it easy? Heck no! But it is so rewarding! First one up is Chels!!!!

Chels not only is an admin, but boy does she work! She is always trying to get that last minute coffee in order to get through the day. She goes her every way to make everyone comfortable, and wanting people to be in groups. She also is a designer! I want to talk more about her, but I want her to do the rest of the talking. I am so happy that she made her website in order to reach out to all of you. So go on over to her website which is: 

www.raisingarrowsx2.com

That way you learn more a little bit more!!! I am telling you that you will be pleased in reading her content. She talks about a whole lot of things, and her instagram is LIT! All information and her shop is listed in her website so be sure to check it out. 

Now it it Tiffs turn!

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Besides being an amazing admin, Tiff has done so many things in order to grow in social media. I have seen her grow so much, get busy, go through a lot of stuff, but that has not stopped her from giving her best to every group that she is in. She used to debate in making a blog, but I am so glad that she took a leap of faith and finally did it! She just made a few posts that are very interesting, and talks about a very fun experience. Even though I want to talk more about her ya’ll need to go to her page, and check it out! Her website is:

https://houseofheadricks.home.blog/ 

Her instagram is so lit too! You will be able to see the things she gets through hard work. So be sure to give her a visit! 

 

Both of these two girls are SUPER MOTHERS! Being a mom, influencer, wife, sister, friend, and an admin as well as trying to balance out everything in life is hard. Being an influencer is NOT easy! At times it can be mentally draining because you just want to give all of you, and do the best you could ever do. Each day is a challenge ending with a huge smile of satisfaction. If these two girls can do it, if I can do it, then trust me honey so can you! I will be interviewing them pretty soon on page so be sure to keep an eye out, and if you want a question that you want me to ask them send me a message as soon as possible. If you haven’t done so already make sure you hit that subscribe button for my blog, and never miss one post from me. I will be posting more these next coming weeks because there is a tons of particles in the air, and it is NOT oxygen lol! Love you all and I hope you are having a wonderful day! 

God bless. Love ya’ll. Peace. 

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